Yep. Money. It blows goats. I have proof.

Now that I've gotten the Wayne's World quote out of my system, onto business... I'm having a minor freak-attack. I officially suck at money management. Somehow I always seem to be broke even though I'm making plenty of money AND have two jobs. What the hell?

I think a lot of this is stemming from me paying the deposit on my new apartment in Northeast, but it's terrifying! $425 a month is not bad as far as rent goes these days, but I'm not used to cutting that large of a check for anything. It's making me wonder if (gasp!) my parents were right and I made the big move a little too early. But NO! I will stick to my guns and make this work. I just started at Jake's so I need to give that time...

It's just that I feel there is constantly one expense over the other and it's so hard to choose between them. There are so many big things coming up. Do I want to go on a trip with Alex to celebrate our birthday and 1 year anniversary, or do I want to go to Vegas for my cousin's wedding? Oh yeah... by the way, Paris is in 2 weeks and the first month's rent is due the day I get back. Do I have enough money for Paris and rent? No. Do I have enough money to pay my bills? No. Groceries? No. Gas? No. I think you get my point.

Basically, I have $100 to my name until I get back from Paris. I desparately brought my change jar to the bank today and made a quick $40 which will thankfully serve as gas money... but I'm not entirely sure what to do. Granted, I am being overly dramatic and my parents will certainly help where they can... but I hate that they have to do that. I'm so close! BUT BAH!

I just have to keep telling myself to wait it out I think... wait it out...

Later days, wooosah.