I have that feeling again... like things are going to take a down-slope turn... It's like... it's like I feel like something's creeping up behind me to make me go back to how I was earlier... the Taylor I didn't like... the one who... well... yeah. That one. I don't know why I have this feeling, and I know I don't like it... I wish I knew where it was coming from and if it was justifiable. I've just... always been so happy go lucky and upbeat... it scares me to see a completely different side of myself that I did not too long ago... the side of myself that's depressed and unhappy... the side that doesn't like who I am... the side that does stupid things. I don't like it. I hope it's not coming back, and I don't see why it would... maybe I'm just crabby... yeah... that's it... crabby.